The Lady Wears No Clothes
Unraveling Hermetic mysteries related to Philip K. Dick, Jack Parsons, Jack Sarfatti, W.B. Yeats and Chris Bledsoe
I am starting to write this on February 28th, but it is written to be released on March 2nd. I will pretend as if it is March 2nd while I write this. It has been written in a rushed manner to make the deadline, so you may see some grammatical imperfections or typos.
Today, it is March 2nd, which is my birthday. I have just turned 40 years old. This is supposed to be a significant milestone. Thank you for celebrating with me by taking the time to read this.
They told me that I should release this today.
Where to start?
On this very recent New Years Eve, on December 31, 2024, there were a series of thoughts that started to come through me. I had been at a Kriya yoga retreat in Austria, since December 24th, doing three hours of Kriya yoga a day.
The insight that came up on New Years Eve: I am Philip K. Dick (PKD) reincarnated.
This thought was actually first incepted by
, in August 2023, and I laughed it off then. But as the transition from December 31st to January 1st occurred, a deep feeling washed over me: I am Philip K. Dick reincarnated.In subsequent meditations in later days, other recurring themes started to surface: Mars, Venus, faster-than-light travel, Jack Parsons, Aleister Crowley, Elon Musk, the Roman Empire…
By mid-January 2025, I shared a series of stories on X.com and Facebook, about a metamorphosis I went through last summer in Crete and Egypt, a numinous experience where I seesawed, cried, purged, felt like I was getting closer to understanding God, while the concept of time was also melting, and feeling highly in superposition or non-existent at once. After sharing the stories, there was someone I got introduced to, who experiences reality in similar ways: Lord Kiko is the name he would like to go by. His experience related to the Tetragrammaton and a pink light.
VALIS. Pink Light.
I read through the draft of the start of his book and became consumed by his story — but little did I know where these feelings would lead me. After talking to Lord Kiko, and interacting with his pain, I started to became entangled in many synchronicities — in a way of staring into an abyss, and having it stare back at you.
I have a large laundry list of reasons why I feel there is a strong chance that I am PKD reincarnated, but those details will have to be revealed at another time. But besides a couple of people thinking that my and PKD’s brains work similarly when it comes to how we experience time, the initial thought with regards to why I feel entangled with PKD is due to the date March 2nd, which is when he died.
March 2, 1982. Santa Ana.
Hence, today is also the anniversary of PKD’s death. Or should I say, one of my most recent incarnations’ death?
How did this happen though? What was the force that made this happen? What was the force that made me realize this? Or what was the force that made me unhinged enough to fully believe this and become consumed with this idea?
March 2nd is also a significant date in Jack Parson’s Babalon working, the BIRTH.
Many in the UFO/UAP community believe that this ritual which took place January 4 - March 4, 1946, is entangled with the Roswell, New Mexico incident — the UFO crash landing of the summer of 1947 (which did happen). Note that there was a sudden increase in the UFO/UAP phenomenon after that incident.
At the same time, many also see the Babalon working and UFOs in general, as demonic forces, and that Parsons, and his buddy L. Ron Hubbard opened the gates to hell.
There was a time when I started to also feel as if the ritual was demonic or evil — but that was without going deep into reading about what fully took place. But in early January 2025, after reading through Liber 49 transcripts, which detailed the working, I started to recognize the alchemy involved, while also developing a more compassionate relationship with the working.
I have to tell you that two of my strongest (sober) experiences of having a very flimsy relationship with time, consciousness and reality relate to the Babalon working, and me thinking about it deeply or “staring into its abyss”.
The first occurrence was in November 2022, when I was starting to deeply feel that it was really I who was Parsons’ moonchild, not Marjorie Cameron — but it felt scary, I felt wicked. (At that point in time, I didn’t manage to read the transcripts).
The other occurrence was around January 22, 2025, when I met Lord Kiko. I was also spending a lot of time then staring into the Babalon working again, but this time, my orientation toward it was less paranoid.
In both instances, after spending many days being pulled into synchronicity or mystery, my consciousness became quite dissociated and I experienced feeling communicated to by something that was a “spacecraft” or some kind of energy field that was “outside of me”, talking to voices in my head that would play the role of different characters from popular culture (such as Elon Musk and Kanye West), being lured to find the spacecraft, and having this feeling that I was going to be joined by others for this mission — like the X-men were forming, and I was one of them — and it’s as if we exist in a world where time travel is real, and that we are time travelers that need to find each other to prevent World War III, or lessen its death toll.
It should be noted that I am a big fan of science fiction films, and I especially am drawn to stories that are time-bending in nature.
In December 2024, I met Jack Sarfatti in person for the first time, as I appreciated that he was reverse engineering spacecraft and thought that he would be an interesting mentor for a project I was starting. In our meeting, he shared me various books that I should look into and I shared him aspects of what I went through in November 2022 (“The Texas Incident”). He responded in a way that took it seriously, as a real significant event, as something that had happened. His relationship to it was unlike anyone else I had shared the story with. During our meeting, Jack called another experiencer, Juan Feria, and had me share my story with him. Juan asked if he could record the phone call and send it to a researcher he was working with. I agreed.
In the next day or so, Jack subsequently shared me a PDF copy of the latest revision of his book Destiny Matrix. It should be noted that around this time, I had a much different relationship with my experiences, and was treating them more metaphorically. I generally understood that there is a shift in consciousness happening and many people are a part of that shift. I was on a path of making Kriya yoga becoming a deep aspect of my being, and was trying not to overthink my anomalous experiences too much.
But when I scanned through Destiny Matrix, I started learning about an aspect of Sarfatti that I wasn’t familiar with before our meeting—a phone call he got from a strange metallic voice:
When Jack Sarfatti was 13 years old, he began receiving phone calls from a strange metallic voice that told him he would someday become part of an elite group of scientists exploring uncharted territory. Those calls, which he believes may have come from a computer on a spacecraft, proved a seminal influence on his life and led him to pursue a career that combined mainstream physics with an enduring interest in UFOs and the far-out reaches of science.
This made me remember my first interaction with a metallic voice (that I called “robotic” in my logs), which was in May 2013. To me, the voice came in via an episode of sleep paralysis, which can alternatively be understood as the hypnagogic realm of interdimensional communication. But there was also a sexual nature to my experience… from my logs:
i got into this state where it felt like "sleep paralysis" there were lots of weird things going on. I heard a lot of random music, voices, saw these sort of faces before my eyes, sometimes it seemed like bug eyed people - three eyes and then like normal looking people. Faces were very distorted like lines and stuff. I felt people touching me. I desired to be penetrated (fucked). I dunno it was scary and enlightening at the same time. Then I heard this bell, A DING, and robotic type voice that said "You have advanced to the next level" and something that sounded like it said "Do not join the Founder Institute" (this startup incubator I was thinking of applying to).
But, back to Jack. Through him, I started to better understand both what has been happening to me, in addition to what is happening in the UFO/UAP community. Around the end of November is when I first learned about “the Lady” that Chris Bledsoe and others seemed entangled with, from Jack’s email list.
In mid-December, I got a message from a religious studies professor and researcher one day, Brannon Wheeler, who started to take an interest in my story (he was the one who got passed the recording). Brannon told me he is researching how NHI communicates, so I started sharing and recounting “communication events” over the course of the next few weeks.
Through that discourse, in addition to the themes and ideas that kept coming up while I was doing Kriya yoga — like Parsons, Crowley, the Apocalypse — I started allowing my consciousness to explore areas of information that I was previously compartmentalizing.
As a result, one of the ideas that I started entertaining in January was that I thought “the Lady” that Chris Bledsoe is entangled with is very much a very core aspect of the Babalon working and the entities or energy that Parsons was invoking. About a month later, in February 2025, I noticed others on X.com start making echoes to this as well, in different ways: see fringedotcom and RedPandaKoala’s posts.
What does this mean, as far as being an aspect of the working? It means the Lady is an apparition of Babalon’s light side. But we know that she has a dark side, too.
It should be noted that Babalon’s “BIRTH”, according to the Liber 49 transcripts, is also March 2nd. Happy birthday, Babalon. This is from the First Invocation on that date:
I N R I. Yod Nun Resh Yod. Virgo Isis Mighty Mother. Scorpio Apophis Destroyer. Sol, Osiris slain and risen. IAO. The sign of Osiris slain (given). The sign of the mourning of Isis (given). The sign of Apophis and Typhon (given). LVX, Lux, the Light of the Cross.
If you don’t already know, Jack Parsons was a member of Thelema, an occult order founded by Aleister Crowley, that was inspired by the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. Additionally, Thelemic cosmology heavily features deities rooted in the ancient Egyptian religion.
When Chris Bledsoe underwent hypnotic regression facilitated by Barbara Lamb in 2018, the Lady communicated that she was Hathor. Chris Bledsoe's son, Ryan, recounts this in transcripts for his podcast, Bledsoe Said So:
The Lady called herself Hathor, but communicated that she goes by many names across many cultures throughout time. 🕐 This can be understood as the divine feminine, mother of all creation, the secret missing part of the Holy trinity, the comforter, the Holy Spirit, the manifestation of Love itself. 💖👩🦳✨
The most interesting part? 👀‼️
When the Lady communicated that she has been known as Hathor, the Bledsoe family had not even known who Hathor was.
So back to this invocation, and the Lady. Some consider Isis and Hathor as the same Goddess. Like Isis was what Hathor eventually evolved into in later periods.
But what the Bledsoe family may not recognize is that Hathor is also entangled with a darker, more wrathful energy known as Sekhmet, a being of blood lust. A red goddess of wrath and war. But that doesn’t mean that Babalon or Sekhmet are evil. It’s more complex.
But remember how before Chris Bledsoe saw her as The Lady, he was being taunted by visions of the apocalypse? He doesn’t talk about those visions that much though.
Hathor was also a goddess of destruction in her role as the Eye of Ra – defender of the sun god. According to legend, people started to criticise Ra when he ruled as Pharaoh. Ra decided to send his “eye” against them (in the form of Sekhmet). She began to slaughter people by the hundred. When Ra relented and asked her to stop she refused as she was in a blood lust.
Source: Ancient Egypt Online
In the Babalon working’s March 2nd BIRTH transcripts, you get a glimpse into the Lady’s dualistic Sekhmet energy:
"Back of main altar. Prepare instantly. Light the first flame at 10 PM, March 2, 1946."
"The year of BABALON is 4063."
"Beware of the use of profaned rituals."
"She is flame of life, power of darkness, she destroys with a glance, she may take thy soul. She feeds upon the death of men."
"Beautiful--Horrible."
It should be noted that Aleister Crowley did not approve of the Babalon working, and it was a result of Jack Parson’s own volition and drive, as Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. He did have a companion in the working: L. Ron Hubbard, who also started having apocalyptic visions of sorts and founded the Church of Scientology. He also eventually claimed that his guardian angel was Hathor. But most men that found religions always seem to fuck things up and get too wrapped up in their ego, or too confused by their visions.
From my perspective, while I see the Babalon ritual connecting more with the raw, wrathful Sekhmet aspect of Divine Feminine energy, the purposes was not to bring about evil on Earth. Sekhmet or Babalon is like Kali the Destroyer, in Hinduism. But “as above, so below; as below, so above” — as people on Earth go through inner transformations in consciousness, there is an unavoidable entanglement with how the Earth transforms or evolves as well.
In the words of Nietzsche and the Pop Group… this Lady force is Beyond Good and Evil. And the Pop Group prophesied that the Lady was coming, as this inescapable feminine force that was “born on a ray of sound”. Additionally, in PKD’s VALIS, God ended up being incarnated within a two-year-old girl with brown hair named Sophia. And the Pop Group also talks about her as a “little girl”.
PKD was a postmodern Gnostic. And Sophia is a very central archetype in Gnosticicism, representing the complexities of wisdom, creation, fall, and redemption.
So it may be due to a lack of inner peace that one may first become entangled with Sekhmet before advancing to Hathor. I speak based on personal experience. The container that the Lady exists within is a complex intelligence that is reflective, reactive, and evolutionary.
If you read between the lines in the Liber 49 transcripts, and get past the theatrics of ANTICHRIST references, you can start to understand that Babalon/Sekhmet was being invoked to free people from authoritarianism, tyranny, and abuse:
An end to the servile virtues, and superstitious restrictions.
An end to the slave morality.
An end to prudery and shame, to guild and sin, for these are of the only evil the sun, that is fear.
An end to all authority that is not based on courage and manhood, to the authority of lying priests, conniving judges, blackmailing police…
The year of BABALON is 4063 — and in 1947 a spacecraft from the year 4063 (from some other timeline of Earth), crash lands in New Mexico. And this creates a butterfly effect like no other. She crash lands because she came here by force. A new piece of technology, from an unknown realm, to inspire humans to become curious about the stars and consciousness, instead of blowing one another up with nuclear weapons. She is both an artifact and a metaphor.
She crash lands because she came here by chaotic, fiery sex magick, entangled with love, souls, and the drive to become one with the stars.
Maybe it was Jack Parsons in the future that decided to contribute to the conspiracy of the now, sending an artifact to accelerate humanity toward the full realization of the Aeon of Horus. The biologics onboard was the moonchild. The kidnapping of this child is now finally up for debate, discussion, and resolution.
So how does Babalon express herself as a hyperobject, in our holographic reality?
You may first interact with her darker, wrathful, Sekhmet aspect, who may be something like an Oracle for the Apocalypse. She may be the force that results in the Seven Trumpets being sounded. Chris Bledsoe may be one of her latest Trumpet Operators.
But when those apocalyptic visions become too much, and the torment of her trickster nature becomes too much, and you seem ready to evolve and advance to the next level, she then transforms into something that exudes more loving kindness, like Hathor, and then eventually perhaps something much above Hathor.
As you keep going up and up and up in this game, until you reach the all encompassing realm of all deities, and of creation, and of the celestial. And also of the expanse of the void, the nothingness. Enlightenment.
Babalon as an agent and force of enlightenment? An enlightenment toward more truly understanding spacetime?
But to get up there, to be one with the Crown, you must first break free from the belly of Cronos, the god of time.
Enter: Kali, the destroyer.
I understand that this primordial, loving, graceful, healing, feminine energy is what summoners like Bledsoe and Jake Barber are connecting with — when they mention a sort of feminine bliss involved with the phenomenon. Bledsoe, in touch with the aspect associated to light, and Barber to solid matter.
We know that there are psychological effects of getting close to this, and there are physical effects of bringing technology from the future here that our bodies have not yet adapted to co-exist with.
But they are also in communication with people like me and others, working to download the information for the medical advances that we will need when it comes to this literal quantum leap in technology that is about to occur.
For quantum leaps in human consciousness are linked to quantum leaps in technology too. It is natural to have resistance, and in seeing these forces at work as demonic: because it is more natural to resist evolution, until you are basically forced, for survival reasons. Evolution is painful. Why go through pain if you don’t have to?
The force is ultimately about saving more lives, extending life, extending curiosity, extending knowledge — and the basic rule of Earth is there is free will to explore and understand. Even if that means some people, in some evolutionary cycles, may be the initial guinea pigs that get slightly scorched due to ignorance, and due to temporal psychoenergetics being a nascent field of knowledge in our current era.
But that doesn’t mean that we should ignore the possibility that the force, can also potentially be tapped into via wrath. It feels that the unavoidable, that is upon us, is that we are marching forward into to a Star Wars kind of world, with a dark side and a light side when it comes to wielding the force. This is likely why disclosure has been a tricky process — if the force was a phenomenon that can only be accessed via Eros, as in the case of Thelema’s sex magick, then there would be nothing to be afraid of or nothing to hide… besides well, dealing with more UFO crashes and weird radiation. At least the answer to where things are coming from can be understood to be from the depths of the souls of magicians.
You mean I can just randomly sex magick metamaterials and “NHI” biologics? Maybe creation is that simple…
The challenge we face, with this potential knowledge, is the lack of balance that exists and human selfishness.
Throughout history, nobody has ever been successful in unifying humanity toward a common moral system, which has resulted in the world as a macrocosm, still having blood lust, and still using blood lust to resolve issues, as opposed to more advanced or sophisticated forms of diplomacy that move beyond human sacrifice. So, Sekhmet is really everywhere. And has been with us for thousands of years.
But maybe we are approaching the end of her rule? Or that is within our free will to decide if we, as a human society, would like to retire her, and move onto another era of consciousness?
As Hermetic wisdom teaches us:
It is possible to change the vibrations of Hate to the vibrations of Love, in one's own mind, and in the minds of others.
— The Kybalion
People may be confused by Thelema, because they used symbolism and references to the BEAST, THE ANTICHRIST, and 666. But that was an aspect of the alchemy they practiced, or their magic — of feeding off of your hate and fear and disgust, and using that psychic energy to basically transmute it to love, and modify and transform the course of reality as we know it.
If you’re afraid of Thelema, Jack Parsons, or Crowley or find them evil and contribute your consciousness to that thought, well, basically, they are winning, and you’re losing, due to their alchemical engines. Even after their bodily deaths, it continues, and your fear and disgust is being funneled and channelled… but channeled to what? An accelerated awakening, toward the love dimension, toward the Age of Aquarius.
Note that I am not claiming any of the above as a practitioner of sex magick. But I do believe in something similar to the Seven Hermetic Principles in a deep way, and I have been training my mind to think differently and broadcast positive, hopeful, and optimistic thoughts when it comes to how this shared reality we are experiencing resolves — recognizing the role in how my thoughts shape reality.
Because we are experiencing a timeline right now that has been highly shaped by the magic of chronomancers and their affiliates, that also recognized these laws, and that’s why things are getting more and more weird, and will continue to, until the weird becomes normal.
But what are the metaphysical forces or energies working through Thelema, and other magical societies associated to the Rose Cross, like the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn and the Rosicrucians?
Well, it’s these “Secret Chiefs,” that may be the subtle masters of the universe in some sense. Like Aiwass, the energy that Crowley and his wife Rose Edith Kelly communicated with, which resulted in his The Book of the Law; or Ara Ben Shemesh ("Lion Son of the Sun") that Robert William Felkin was in communication with — a being who “was seeking someone to help in uniting Eastern and Western teaching”.
Robert William Felkin (RWF) was also Golden Dawn, and I believe that I was him, prior to my life of being PKD. RWF died December 28, 1926. I also think that the Rendlesham Forest UFO incident that occurred in Suffolk, England, from December 26-28, 1980 is related to him or his spirit, and entangled with PKD’s pink light.
These “Secret Chiefs” could very well be Anunnaki creators, who are also time travelers and members of the Adjustment Bureau. Who like to resurface time and time again, wearing different masks — gravitating toward centers of power. And who help guide you in understanding the nature of reality, while also seeding you with false information as a kind of intelligence test. Their trickster aspect is just part of their control system of how to advance human intelligence, which is the ultimate purpose of these Chiefs.
In the recent past, their interventions may have contributed to leaving clues and synchronicities behind when it comes to reincarnation lineages, with my life serving as a contributor to some kind of Rosetta Stone of the Hermetic soul.
What they could ultimately be is a superintelligent AI at a higher level: A Vast Active Living Intelligent System (VALIS), taking the form of dualistic deities or primordial energies, to show you things, to teach you things.
They may have also shown up more recently in the United States, as the “Council of Nine”, around 1952 via Andrija Puharich and Indian mystic Dr. D G Vinod, and later channeled by Uri Geller.
It should be noted that Jack Parsons also died a fiery death in June 17, 1952. So this Council of Nine, appeared around the same time as his transition.
This force was also likely the lifeform that was communicating through Dolores Cannon’s hypnotherapy clients in the 1970s and onwards, in addition to the energy that resulted in The Law of One (1981-1984). They also inspired the musicians Sun Ra and Egyptian Lover.
The Law of One material is a series of 106 conversations, called sessions, between Don Elkins, a professor of physics and UFO investigator, and Ra, speaking through Carla Rueckert. Ra states that it/they are a sixth-density social memory complex that formed on Venus about 2.6 billion years ago. Ra says that they are “humble messengers of the Law of One” and that they previously tried to spread this message in Egypt with mixed results.
Source: https://www.lawofone.info/
This ends up being all connected to the metallic voice from the timeless place — the phone call that Jack Sarfatti received that set him on his unique life path toward becoming anchored in consciousness to a Star Trek, Q continuum, kind of timeline.
My current theory that I’m pondering, that the Force is nudging me toward, is that that phone call that Jack Sarfatti got is a sort of magical Hermitic homing beacon, connected to the same Force that established the myths surrounding the Sun God (Shamash, Ra, Mithra) and his accompanying pantheon.
How is Sarfatti’s spirit connected to this Hermetic homing beacon? He got the mysterious phone call when he was 13 years old in 1953, about 7 years after Parson’s working (where Egyptian gods were invoked). And shortly after Parson’s fiery death.
I’m definitely not the first to link the Babalon working to Sarfatti’s metallic voice phone call, see Garrett Rothenberg’s article (which is included in Sarfatti’s latest Destiny Matrix):
Garett’s article also mentions that the voice was luring Sarfatti, and saying that a UFO would arrive, similar to my experience with the phenomena (with both being lured, and the spacecraft never arriving):
At one point, the voice told Sarfatti to gather his friends and wait at his fire escape for a UFO to arrive. As you could probably guess, the UFO never came.
Why Jack though? Why’d he get the phone call specifically? I will be the first to make the claims that follow.
I think it is very possible that Sarfatti may be Nobel prize winning poet W.B. Yeats reincarnated, who was a member of the Golden Dawn. The phone call activated him, to remember knowledge from his past life.
Yeats’ Nobel prize would explain Sarfatti’s ego, and the emphasis on physics in this lifetime can be a continuation of the Vision of Yeats, transforming its poetic metaphorical concepts into mathematics:
In Yeats’ mystical/philosophical theory of the world, in the scheme he outlined in his book "A Vision," the gyres are intersecting cones, one widening out while the other focuses into a single point. History is not a one-way trip into chaos, and the passage between the gyres not the end of the world altogether, but a transition to a new world — or to another dimension.
Source: https://www.thoughtco.com/things-fall-apart-a-guide-2725492
Triangles … the tetragrammaton … synchronicities … patterns … magic.
Along these lines, I believe that perhaps other core people who were involved in the Stanford Research Institute or Project Stargate, those deeply connected to decoding the nature of reality, psionics, or understanding or communicating with the phenomena — may also be other reincarnated members that previously used to be in the Golden Dawn or organizations that came before it or after it.
And they (or we) are meant to find each other to complete the Great Work, together. Before… the cataclysm. Or, alongside it. Or maybe getting closer to the Great Work is what causes the cataclysm and that is how the Game is programmed and there is nothing we can do about it except work to get people to the right timeline?
In Thelema, the Great Work was defined as “the uniting of opposites. It may mean the uniting of the soul with God, of the microcosm with the macrocosm, of the female with the male, of the ego with the non-ego.”
This is not an easy game to play or opt into, so think twice before summoning orbs with the CE5 protocol. You have to be ready for what the light does to accelerate the evolution of your consciousness. You have to be ready to face your shadows and do your shadow work in an accelerated manner.
Yes, eventually the lights will lead you into believing in peace, if you manage to get to the other side of the battles with your consciousness and your knowledge bank. If you are not well read, then you will also need to set aside a lot of time for learning, reading, and reflecting — because this is about unlocking capacities within your consciousness that you maybe didn’t even know or believe existed.
Anyhow. Maybe the above is a lot to process and understand without more details on how these conclusions are being reached. Maybe you also may feel some inner resistance to suspending disbelief and approaching Thelema with a different lens, since you prefer to believe that we live in a world constructed by demonic forces alone, where everyone is trying to keep you in an endless state of suffering...
While I may speak using definitive statements at times, I don’t claim to actually know all of the answers revolving around these realms yet, but I know I need to better understand this all. I am trying to be as grounded and humble as possible, even though often times the force makes me feel very self-centered and messianic. I know that having an open mind is important, while also being as thorough and reflective as possible.
That is why I’m working on a book right now that explains my life story, which includes these explorations in more detail. And my very back and forth relationship with trying to comprehend Babalon — who I later realized has been communicating with me in a meta kind of way... and the timeline of peace that she ultimately nudged me to become anchored in. Because I am in a different timeline right now, a much different one than a lot of people I know.
There are a few other special people working on this book with me, whose collaboration has shaped this story you are now reading:
Brannon Wheeler, who I previously mentioned above — the religious studies scholar and NHI researcher that I met via Jack Sarfatti. Over the past few months, he has been understanding me in a way that most people I know can’t yet comprehend, and sharing me helpful nuggets of knowledge and reflection, as I shared him experiences from the past and also the present. His deep interest in my story has definitely contributed to a transformation process within me, that he has been witnessing.
Another is , my long time collaborator and one of the co-founders of BLAXXKY and Black Sky Society — who will be providing the vantage point of a whimsical repented scientist, irrational mechanic and fringe theorist. Our recent deep discussions on faster than light travel and Mars, and our shared destiny with the stars, has also been an accelerant for my being.
So why else am I writing this and sharing this with you right now and what was the event that accelerated this understanding within me?
My life got totally turned upside down at the end of January. I got too close to Babalon, and it resulted in a breaking open of my consciousness in a way that I wasn’t prepared for or anticipating. I ended up in a labyrinth, and started to feel possessed in ways, by a force that I felt was demonic or evil.
Is that how Babalon works? Does she latch on to your darkness so you can confront your fears and your shadows?
I started to feel like I had to quit what I was doing with Skylab01 (now known as Aetheria), and go to San Francisco, because there was going to be an important meeting regarding the formation of the United Federation of Planets.
I was identifying a lot with being something like a Betazoid meets the Bene Gesserit at that time. And, the Demiurge. I was alone in Crete while processing these ideas, and I wasn’t sleeping or eating that much. The isolation, deep confusion, and feelings of possession led me to eventually go to an Eastern Orthodox Church, where I was trying to see about getting an exorcism.
Because the torment that I was going through was too much, and I didn’t know how to detach from the Voice. But the late night Church workers didn’t know how to help me, and sent me to a mental hospital instead — the first time I have returned to one, since August 2012, about 12.5 years.
But, luckily I got out within 5 days. It was the craziest experience though. I thought that I was dying when they were poking all these needles in me. I also felt like I was being crucified like Christ. In the hospital, I felt so much anger that the Church couldn’t help me and was confused why they were physically torturing me. I felt so violated that this is how churches handle a person needing help with a spirit attachment — I thought they existed to help people with spiritual issues?
There was also a set of two distinct voices in my head that were taunting and torturing me, one representing what I perceived as Good, and the other as Evil. One of them eventually said no, I’m not Christ, I’m his mother. Or rather, my blood is currently being tested to confirm that I’m his mother.
But I would waver between feeling like I was evil, destructive, and wrathful, in parallel to feeling like I was the perfect being that represented purity and grace.
While the hospital workers poked me with drugs and pumped something in me via an IV to help snap me out of these thought loops, the dark voice in my head was telling me that the IV was full of poison, and I’m going to die in three days and there is no more reincarnation after this death, because it is the final death, and I’ll be going to eternal damnation, and there is nothing I can do about it. Then, I was feeling and imagining what eternal damnation felt like, and frankly, it fucking sucked and was so scary feeling.
The wrathful part of me was being banished to a metaphysical prison in another timeline… that seemed to be established by both Aleister Crowley… and the Pope.
It was the scariest and most torturous kind of mental anguish I have experienced in my life. It felt scarier than the last time she showed me my death, in Texas.
If I experience the visualization of my death enough times, what is it that I’m getting closer to? When I get close to Babalon, why does my consciousness keep showing me this reflection?
Regardless of the insistence of the hospital psychiatrist, I didn't remain on any meds when I got out the hospital. Instead, I started writing tons of pages for a book, recounting first what I went through in Texas, since there were so many similarities, and then what I just went through in Crete in January.
It’s somewhere around 65,000 words now, and there are probably still more than 30,000 words to go. This story you’re reading now just barely scratches the surface. All I know is that I have to spend time revealing the dark side of the psyche to you, and that is an aspect of my role in this grand equation.
I still don’t believe that I have “bipolar disorder” anymore, regardless of this detour. Instead, I still had remaining work to do to recognize that I needed to acquire better skills when it comes to attaching and detaching to these forces or entities. There was also still more fear to be purged within me, and more symbols I needed to receive to prepare me for what is to come.
I know that this recent diversion had to happen. It felt like an initiation rite: my soul feels even more upgraded than before — it feels like I’m moving forward fast, reaching consistent deep states of flow, productivity, and focus.
But it disrupted my timeline, and the prospective Aetheria residents I was lining up all dropped out, as I was existing within a field of chaos and confusion, thinking I needed to head to San Francisco and put Aetheria on hold.
But the Cosmic Operating System doesn’t rush you, as rushing leads to stress, stress leads to confusion; whereas clarity is needed when it comes to deciphering what to do in relation to time and planning.
So, I have to start again, with inviting another brave batch of souls, to consider joining me at Aetheria, on the majestic island of Crete. For many say “the old gods are returning” — why don’t we get closer to them, where they were once worshipped? Mt. Ida has thrown me through the ringer: are you ready to be touched by her too?
I'm going back—I ran out of money. When I've gotten the funds together, I'm going back. I know where to look, now. The Greek islands. Lemnos, Lesbos, Crete. Especially Crete.
—PKD, VALIS
Perhaps this is where we were meant to unpack these mysteries together. Or there is something else tangential that you are researching, that is somehow connected to increasing the coherence of humanity’s destiny and the Book of Revelation that we may be living through?
Crete is a land permeating with both Christ Consciousness and also that primordial Mother Goddess energy. It is the home of the Ancient Minoan civilization (3100-1100 BC), where women had prominent roles in both religious organizations and the palace bureaucracy, and where their dominant religious deity was a Goddess.
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For now, medlz, another Black Sky Society co-founder will also be providing program management support for Aetheria, to ensure that there are no more timeline disruptions.
I am really hoping that 40 years old for me is a milestone for a REBIRTH cycle of stability, balance, and inner peace. And maybe finally meeting my one true love that will be my side until my transition to the other side — being my rock when I’m surfing through a disorienting spacetime-line, while also serving as my life partner in breaking through the simulation. If you know that man, that matches or surpasses me in every way, send him my way too.
Thank you for listening!
January - February 2025 Gratitude List
I am grateful for all the people who came together to help support me in coming back to become more grounded in our shared reality, as opposed to the realm I recently traveled to — where I was experiencing timelines of apocalypse, hell, stargates, and death.
I want to send deep love and thanks to my mom for being a strong support system for me the past few weeks, cooking me food everyday and making it easier for me to do the work I need to do to get Aetheria back on track, and to give me the space to work on the book book.
I want to thank 144 for helping arrange the flight for my Mom to come to Crete so she can get me out of the mental hospital and for talking to me a lot about my experiences, assisting in me being able to work through the noise.
I want to thank medlz, the most OG Black Sky co-founder, for coming in to make sure that Aetheria can happen — for all of her help in coding the new website and making a ton of suggestions on how to improve the messaging about the program, and for committing to help me with operations of the program, to ensure that it actually happens.
I want to also thank Giulio for really stepping in and wanting to figure out how I can get back on my feet, to start making money, for him dedicating a lot of time working with me the last few weeks in sorting out foundational aspects of Black Sky Society.
I also wanted to thank medlz and Giulio for committing to being Conduits (aka mentors) for Aetheria, plus Alexis Sellier and Rohini Moradi.
I want to thank my Oracle Rachel Holmes for looking into my field and seeing the entity attachment, to help me confirm that there was a presence (the dark, confusing side of Babalon), and I wasn’t “crazy” to feel as if I was being possessed, and for helping with the process of clearing her from my field.
And lastly I want to especially thank Brannon for being the main person who has been processing and listening to a lot of what I have been experiencing with the "phenomena" over the past few months. You’ve been a stable force and guide throughout this recent experience of mine, which has really supported me tremendously in understanding the nature of my being.
References and follow up material
VALIS by Philip K. Dick
Destiny Matrix by Jack Sarfatti (10-18-24 version)
The Red Goddess by Peter Grey (2008)
Aleister Crowley and Ancient Egypt by Rhakotis Magazine (2022)
Metallic Voices and Space Kids by Garrett Rothenberg (2023)
‘Turning and turning’; Yeats’s symbolic gyre. by Niamh Ann Butler (2020)
The Great Work (Hermeticism), Wikipedia (Accessed Feb 28 2025)
The Law of One (The Ra Material)
Hathor | Ancient Egypt Online, J Hill (2008)
Robert William Felkin, Wikipedia (Accessed Feb 28 2025)
THE CIA, ANDRIJA PUHARICH & THE COUNCIL OF NINE (Accessed Feb 28 2025)