Subconscious connectedness and anomalous experiences
I wrote so much in the month of February—over 50K words towards a book. The process of writing did things to me. First, I felt more and more like I was better understanding reality—life started to feel more deeply meaningful.
It seemed like my life was something like a puzzle that had missing puzzle pieces. And I was slowly finding some of the missing puzzle pieces and connecting them to the puzzle. As I kept digging, more puzzle pieces would appear, but then it started to become confusing if the puzzle piece was something that was a missing puzzle piece related to my life, or if I was just starting to make things up and expand the the size of the puzzle board. At a certain point in time, I hit a wall.
What felt like gnosis then began to feel like insanity. I guess there is a fine line.
I was releasing and sharing stories about my life, particularly related to anomalous experiences. Because of that, I started to meet more and more people that have this subconscious connectedness psychological trait. A recent research study is suggesting that this trait is common:
A new series of studies suggests that unusual experiences like premonitions, déjà vu, and out-of-body sensations are not rare, but instead quite common—and that people who report them often share distinct psychological traits. The research, published in the journal Psychology of Consciousness: Theory, Research, and Practice, found that individuals high in a trait called subconscious connectedness were significantly more likely to report frequent anomalous experiences. These experiences were also associated with traits such as dissociation, magical thinking, absorption, and intuitive thinking.
The first quarter of 2025 seemed to be some kind of training exercise: the number of anomalous experiences I had felt through the roof. I started my Kriya yoga practice in a deeper way at the end of December 2024. By January 1st, I was starting to process being Philip K. Dick in my past life. That month I would have all sorts of very weird dreams that sometimes felt like portals. I would also close my eyes a few times and see different scenes immediately, like a remote viewing capability was activating. I also started to feel possessed and hijacked by entities. I experienced different timelines and felt in the middle of a time war, which came about after convincing myself about being Philip K. Dick in a past life.
March 2025 was intense. I met more people with similar beliefs about the time war. There were also accusations left and right about me being demonically possessed. I experienced what felt like my first entangled psychic attack, that seemed to be connected to at least five other people besides me.
Everything became too intense and overwhelming. I had to detach and stop thinking about my past lives and the time war.
What came afterwards was a deeper recognition and acceptance that negative entities exist, or alternatively, there are entities or energies that exist that somehow have to make you feel or experience something negative or scary, so you can grow up and spiritually evolve.
Perhaps someone with deep experience straddling the various realms of reality can distinguish the difference. But me? A technologist who has suppressed my inner mystic for almost 12 years, only to more truly discover her last summer? I still have a bit of catching up to do.
Whenever things became overwhelming near the end of March, I just had to take a time out and give my brain some more breathing room. I had to choose to be okay with being ignorant. I then basked in the bliss that comes along with accepting not knowing.
The main realization I had was, it doesn't matter at this moment if a time war exists or not. It doesn't change what I am doing with my life today, or in the next few months. I will probably spend more CPU cycles down the road unpacking the time war. But today? It's a bit insignificant to me.
It just seems like such a big topic that requires a few years of deep research combined with inner spiritual development. It doesn't seem like its gnosis is something that can be rushed.
I have to admit, that these recent ontological transitions haven't been that easy. I would like to hope that the hardest parts are over though. I'm getting more used to existing in reality with my newfound perception, that I'm both integrating and detaching from, as opposed to suppressing or becoming too attached.
It feels stable at the moment to be more loose when it comes to these theories. Whenever I am more serious, and less loose, reality picks up speed and presents you with more challenges. What feels liberating now is I have the freedom to turn on or off how "active" I want to be when it comes to playing the "let's figure out reality" game.
Last summer, whenever I started to become more of an active player in the “let’s figure out reality” game, I had a hard time relating to a lot of people in the cryptocurrency industry, who made up most of my social group. I also started to feel disillusioned — because the fast pace at which I wanted the industry to move toward the Post-Web didn’t seem to be lining up. So I took a bit of a time out and started dedicating more energy to aspects of myself and my interests that I was ignoring. E.g. I got deeper into spirituality, consciousness, reality hacking, telepathy, aliens, and Kriya yoga.
This year, I have been meeting more and more people who are at similar junctures in their journeys of decoding reality. This has made it easier to return to technology and better understand my role in its advancement, and to also be more content and accepting that all of my collaborators in life don't have to share my perception.
I also feel like I'm finally starting to integrate somewhat in Crete. I moved to Greece, initially to the island of Naxos, in August 2023. I'm not the most outgoing person when it comes to making friends with new people in new places.
Naxos also has a pretty small population when it comes to residents. It seems likely I'll get rid of the rental I have in Naxos—to cut costs and more clearly commit to one locale for now. It's a special small little island though. I miss the little beach I'd swim at there.
But yeah, Crete has more depth, history, friends, and potential energy. I've gotten used to living more in the mountains (not too high, about 450m). There are still some beaches nearby (about a 30-minute drive away)—they aren't quite the same as my Naxos beach though. But I've been appreciating being surrounded by more trees, and there being hikes with gorges, rivers, and waterfalls. Naxos was more dry.
In Crete, it feels like a place where I can develop a really solid friend group, which is important for establishing foundations of a new society. There are a lot of people here who are also getting deeper with their mysticism, or have already been deep with it for some time. We are starting to scheme and plot regarding organizing workshops, seminars, gatherings, and retreats at Aetheria.
It's hard for me to maintain friendships where we are just talking and meeting and updating each other on our lives alone. The few friends I had in Naxos were more like that. I guess I always much preferred synergizing, collaborating, creating, when it comes to my favorite things to do with people. Or alternatively, organizing a dinner party or playing a board game.
There is also just a lot to explore on this island. Every weekend, it seems I can discover something new, and it's only up to 1-2 hours away from me. It's a big island, with a lot of history. There's also a lot that's a bit further (3 hours away), but those places are probably better explored with overnight trips.
Circling back to what I was discussing earlier: 2025 has been about boosting up the number of friends and acquaintances that have the subconscious connectedness personality trait, or reconnecting with older friends that have it and sharing more stories about our anomalous experiences. My new friends in Crete fall into this category.
I always had a feeling that subconscious connectedness is actually quite common, but because Western society became so closeted when it comes to openly discussing such matters, that it can feel rare or "weird" to some people.
I believe that once one finally becomes truly activated and fully embodied in living a spiritually integrated life, it also starts to become so obvious that it is the missing ingredient of one standing any chance to reaching a state of inner peace.
On a scale of 1-10, how would you rate your own subconscious connectedness? Were there moments in your life when you could say you rated stronger? Are you now suppressing? Why?